I'm always jumping to conclusions, even ones that are fucking stupid and nasty that I don't want to believe.
...I just...couldn't see it being anyone other than Natsuo. And it made me feel sick to think that, because I'd always thought, holy crap, this pairing thing is awful, it just leaves people wide open to a world of mental pain and trauma, and yet, and yet, you have Zero. Who may be creepy little monster brats, but at least they'd never fuck each other over like. Like. Like Seimei did to Soubi. I'll never fucking forgive that dead bastard for that. So when I went through all the options, and only Natsuo was left...agh. I dunno. It was awful.
And what the fuck was I thinking, talking to him like that? Aaaaagh. I'm such a fuck up.
And then, and then, of course, I go make it worse by going after Demyx! I've got to admit, I was kind of relieved when I realised it might have been him, 'cause I was thinking, maybe Natsuo didn't do it! Maybe it was this guy, which means there's some hope for this messed up fighting thing after all, and the kids really do care for each other as much as they apparently do. But I was just fucking wrong there too. Great. I just made a bad situation absolutely shitty. Because obviously, I am a genius like that.
I swear to god, I just fail in all areas, seriously. Now the entire community hates me, Zero hate me, I hate me! What am I going to dooooooo...
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